Only 13 days

I can’t believe Thanksgiving is just two days away!  I feel like just days ago I was starting my fall semester at James Madison; but here I am spending Thanksgiving break sleeping an ungodly amount of hours, instead of wasting it studying my life away.  This semester, by far, has been the most challenging Lyme semester I have ever faced in my life.  I have faced the inner black holes of Lyme through and through and am still waiting to see the light.  Often times I wonder if the light is ever going to come.

Since my last update, the second round of that protocol was much harsher than the first round of that protocol for some reason.  I contribute that to temperature changes, more stress, not eating as much or as well as I needed to be, and getting attacked by numerous small infections.  So, it made all of my Babesia symptoms worse.  About half way through the protocol I completely switched to green smoothies and eating all clean with the exception of chicken once a day.  I saw dramatic improvements in my energy levels and overall coloring in my face.   I have been able sustain that since.

When I went to the doctors, last time I was given a completely different protocol it is only 13 days long with 15 days off. 

Days 1,2,3- artimissinin, septra ds, daraprim,

Days 1 &3- Mepron, Merropenom and Cipro by IV

Day 4- Flagyl and Diflucan

Day 5- off antibiotics

Day 6,7,8- 2 X daily Merropenom and Cipro by IV

Day 9,10 off

Day 11-13-- CoArtem  

Like I said, short, sweet and to the point.  Right now I am on day 5 and feel very high/spacey.  I feel like other people cannot connect with me and like I cannot connect with them.  I often feel like this but it is exasperated now.  I am sick of everyone; I am sick of no one understanding what it is like to be me or go through what I have to go through every damn day.  It is becoming exhausting to try to please other people; I hate putting on a show.  I am very thankful to have a couple of people that do listen and try to understand.  How do others deal with their emotions?  What have been people’s reactions to Daraprim?  Also how do people deal with herxing?  

This time I will actually keep everyone posted on how I am feeling throughout the protocol since it is only 13 days!  

“I have come to believe that caring for myself is not self indulgent.  Caring for myself is an act of survival.”